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May. 30th, 2012



So a lot has happened to me in the last few months. I was tired of the depression and i started to look back to see what was the cause of the depression. I looked back and saw the times i was happy. I did some soul searching and found a test that i took. It gave me some answers to questions i had never thought about. It made since tho. So there i was, sitting on the info that i was transgender. In my case i am male and female. Not fully needing to change my sex to be happy but it is something i could do. I started to think about stuff in my life and I could not believe the things that i missed. Signs that was so obvious but i didn't notice.

I went to see Dark Shadows with Sherri, but i was not me, i was Mystie. I dressed as a girl in stuff i had been buying for a while. I was believable. No one looked at me twice. (wore the outfit you see in the photo) it was a good day. i was happy, some thing i had not been in a long time. It was great as i said before. It was a few days later i did the hardest thing in my life. I told my parents. Well told my mom and she told my dad. They took it better than i thought. I can even dress and go out with people if i want to as mystie. I don't have to hide from them at all.

I was at Room Con... err scratch that Mystie was at Room Con. Seeing some for the first time, others for the first time in years. It was a great time. People loved that i was happy. It had been so long.

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lisamoe
May. 30th, 2012 03:51 pm (UTC)
You know, I kind of wondered why you had left that behind.
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:42 am (UTC)
I left her behind because i finally started to look more male. I was not able to look like i should. (or wanted to) It never dawned on me that she really was a part of me....
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clevermanka
May. 30th, 2012 04:40 pm (UTC)
Baby, you looked faboo!
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:43 am (UTC)
Thank you. That means a lot to me....
rowangolightly
May. 30th, 2012 04:49 pm (UTC)
You know in all the years I have known you, this doesn't surprise me at all. Whatever makes you happy, my dear, is just dandy with me.

And I'm not at all surprised by your parents' reaction; they're awesome people.

Look how long it took me to figure out who I am, although that isn't trans, it just goes to show that still me took long enough.

May this discovery bring you much more joy! *hugs*
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:47 am (UTC)
Thank you, that means a lot to me
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jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:49 am (UTC)
I'm just glad i took and found the path. It was hidden by so much crap. Now i see the rolling hills of grass, where i can truly be happy and for once be my self.....
geekmom
May. 30th, 2012 07:09 pm (UTC)
Huh. I always just assumed you knew. It seemed obvious to me.
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:53 am (UTC)
I have had so many people say that same thing to me. I just wished they had said it to me. I had no clue. After i found out there was a lot of stuff that i went "what the hell, i didn't notice the sign.....
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(Anonymous)
May. 31st, 2012 02:17 am (UTC)
You look fabulous!
You looked fabulous AND happy at RoomCon. Next challenge: RenFest garb that makes you happy?
astein142
May. 31st, 2012 02:18 am (UTC)
You looked fabulous -- and happy! Next challenge: RenFest garb that makes you happy?
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:27 pm (UTC)
No I will be out at fair in my regular garb. To many coworkers come out and i still need to keep this a little bit of a secret. :) Tho i am thinking i do want a corset and some great steam punk outfits.... which i have seen a few worn out at ren faire....
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jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:29 pm (UTC)
So am I. It has been hell for me and i am glad to be happy...
Jean Allison Namaste Stuntz
May. 31st, 2012 02:30 am (UTC)
It is good to see you smile.
I am glad you are happy. It was nice to meet Mystie. She is a good person. So is Jimmy. Love to all of you. :-)

Jean
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:31 pm (UTC)
Re: It is good to see you smile.
I wrote a thank you note and told them i am still the same person i was... just female as well. I still love morbid stuff, i love hunter S Thompson and John Waters, i am still me. I just happen to like feeling and being a woman.... :)
Mike Fitzpatrick
May. 31st, 2012 02:31 am (UTC)
I love you either way
Mystie or Jimmy or hell Mys. Jimmy I love you either way
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:33 pm (UTC)
Re: I love you either way
Thank you, i had been trying to figure out the best way to tell you. I have had a few people that i worried about....
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(Anonymous)
May. 31st, 2012 02:38 am (UTC)
I happy for you. I love that you have found you that makes you happy. You will be my friend as Jim, or as Misty or as Zolar from the planet Rombi. As long as you are happy you will make the ones around you happy and I love that!!!
Stephanie K. Fitzpatrick
May. 31st, 2012 02:45 am (UTC)
I am happy for you. I love that you have found you that makes you happy. You will be my friend as Jim, or as Misty or as Zolar from the planet Rombi. As long as you are happy you will make the ones around you happy and I love that!!!
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:35 pm (UTC)
thank you, I'm glad my friends are ok with this....
littleegypt
May. 31st, 2012 03:48 am (UTC)
I love you. You look wonderful in this picture and happy. I wish that I had been at ConQuest to see you this happy.
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:36 pm (UTC)
I'm going to start doing more as mystie i think. I like being her and it makes me happy. We missed you at ConQuesT...
(Anonymous)
May. 31st, 2012 07:38 am (UTC)
YES!!! What a great step you have taken!

Oh, just to let you know, I would have looked twice! Yes, yes I would! wink wink

Big Hugs to you dear...
jimmy_hollaman
May. 31st, 2012 01:39 pm (UTC)
It is a big step and i do not know where i will be going from here. My door is open tho and i can see the future is a lot better.... (oh out of curiousity who wrote this?)
sf_reader
May. 31st, 2012 08:03 pm (UTC)
Wishing you joy and peace in whatever role you choose.

Edited at 2012-05-31 08:04 pm (UTC)
jimmy_hollaman
Jun. 1st, 2012 03:52 pm (UTC)
Thanks, it means a lot to me that my friends are accepting of me.
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